Suddenly the longgggg story becomes a short one!!!

              Yeah so its quite a long time I came here the last time. But there was nothing on mind these days.( should I worry? ) But this took a place on my mind! 
               So when someone says that he or she's upset you instantly start guessing the reasons behind the bad mood ( only if u care for the person) Now I m a bit analytical person. I guess much about people which due time is getting right frequently. I don't know about other people but I always put 'breakup' as the reason high on my list. So I obviously know they are dying to tell me. Yeah dying because because they want to tell someone and I m their first option. ( I know m showing off but this means I m good friend to them *grins*) 
              So I start with 'What happened?'  Now as I know for curtsy they would say 'Leave it its a long story'. So I have press the thing and pretend to throw a fit. So they agree n Just say one sentence 'WE BROKE UP'. This is how suddenly their longgg story becomes a short one!! Their story starts here and ends here! :D I went through this humor 4 times in last few months! One is my cousin and others r my friends. So for our convenience we would these three friends as A, B and C.
               A is a girl. She's my classmate in college. So one day she came to me came to me with the 'news' that she's in a bad mood. So after all the procedure she told me she had a break up. Her mother found out n din't approve. Now this looks like a common story. This was no new to me but I had to console her because she was expecting it. And that was end of her story. 
               B is a guy. He had fucked in his examination n had really bad day afterwards. So this time when I asked it hadn't clicked me. But when he told its a 'longgggg' story would tell u afterwards I got the situation. I left it that time. (we mostly talk through messages) When I asked the other day he din't reply so even I din't push. So if not a breakup he surely had a big fight. 
               This is how their lonng story started and finished in just a sentence. In case other two people they atleast have few lines to tell in their story.
                My cousin lives in New Jersey. One day while chatting after all that upset and longg story thing, he told me he had a break up. Now here the story is about after breakup. After two months of the breakup they both are still good friends. My brother's pretending that he doesn't like her that much as before. I don't know why does he do that. She chose to leave him then she has to cope with the guilt or fact or whatever u say , that he still likes her. Y does he have hurt himself by pretending? After breakup y does she to be still friends? That's stupid!!!
              C is a girl. She used to be my close friend before I left the school. In this case the humor is I din't ask all this to my friend but her BF. Due to her even he had became my friend. So the news about their breakup was broken up to me by him. :D. She's accused by him of lying to him. N probably its true.( cruel truth!! ) Now both of them want me to stop talking to the other one. But I m clear I not going stop talking with anyone. I have my own rules and 'fundas' of friendship. Rule 3 says 'that till a person has not hurt u let alone watever he has done to others U don't need to breakup or stop talking to him' So now I just talk about one in front of the other. 
              I got it that there's always something new in the story of there breakup. I don't know Y people say its hard to cope up with the breakup. I don't think it will be that hard for me. I don;t know I have never experienced such a feeling!! Yeah I got little senti at the end. :D
            
(p.s Bye guys see u really soon. Till then Take care....)

THE CONFUSED HEART!!

                                 I'm lying here on the bed but the calmness which creeps into me every night has not shown up still! I have all day waited for the night so that it would handle my heart. But it has no effect!All day I behaved badly with my friends, specially Bhavya! I stayed silent all day. They took my silence as my another unusual mood-less day. Bhavya knew me very well. She knew that behind this silence I have a reason but she even knew that if  I ever wanted to tell I would tell her myself and if not probably I would never tell!. And she's right. I m not going to tell any of my friends. I choose to not to talk to control my emotions. The neck high emotions!!. If I talk I would start crying! I wouldn't make that big mistake to tell anything to them.I don't want to get them into this confusion of my mind n heart. What do I tell them that I that their friend has gone crazy? She is out her mind!
                                Yeah exactly! I m out of my mind. What m I thinking? How can even I get attracted to Abhigyan, love is the next thing? When knowing he thinks of me just as his bestie. Yes I know he relies on me shares all his problems even that between his girlfriend! How can I love him knowing he has a girlfriend n he's really into it? And even Sanjana loves him the same way. How can I even come between them? I don't want to come between them. It would deeply hurt him if they part n I dont want to see myself behind it! But same problem I m not able to control my attraction.. I have tried so so so many times but failed n that even miserably! 
                                I know, I remember I had said to myself long ago I would never let this love thing come between me n my Career, My Dream. I remember it. I remember it very very well. Its always there in my subconscious mind but its not helping me! This crying helps me nothing! I don't know y people say crying helps! After every such night I tell myself to make some distance till I get down from this. But whenever he says he needs me I melt down. This triggers me! Yeah again! I dont know what to do? I want to concentrate on my studies but this attraction makes that hard. Does anyone has any solution for my heart? I hate felling this.. I hate it!



(P.S Hi guys! I know m here after a long time but I had nothing on my mind for long time. This story is not related to me. I saw before that people relate my stories with me.Thanks for reading n commenting! Will try to be back soon. Till then bye n Take care! )